the world according to nikki B............in lund

my bapak

2011-09-08T08:49:00.001+02:00

my beloved bapak/dad passed away today noon M'sian time, i am saddened and relieved that the time has come, he has been sick for almost 2 years.....i don't know how do you write a a post of loss...
may your soul be lifted with an immense light and love to where there is no pain or suffering exist.

Tooth fairy...

2011-08-31T07:49:00.001+02:00

Tilda....& her missing link!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

310799 - 31072011

2011-07-31T20:47:00.000+02:00

BIG 12

I've had 12 years of laugh,cry,joy and bliss!! hope to have 12 more of the same nothing more or less....

life is grand

refleksi dari dalam!

2011-07-17T11:43:00.000+02:00

i realized that i've lost touch with writing in bahasa melayu. i speak 6 languages fluently..i've no idea how & why....i hear language thru a person's body language...i'm good at mimicking at it...i kinda proud of i too!

refleksi dari dalam...hmmm dalam apa ye? minggu yg lepas adalah satu minggu yang sangat intens. saya menunggu jawapan dari pihak bangunan,pihak insurans dan pihak bikram di amerika khususnya tapi secara amnya saya sangat gentar & terkejut dgn keadaan di malaysia - free & fair YELLOWkan diri anda kampen. kenapa sampai boleh jadi macam ni? sangat pelik and yang lebih mengejutkan...ramai anak anak malaysia berbagai kaum sudah berganding bahu untuk mencari matlamat yg sangat bagus untuk masa depan Malaysia. saya sokong malaysia walau apa pun. tapi bila kita sudah lupa dengan apakah erti demokrasi maka kita sendiri terkejut dengan permintaannya iaitu FREE & FAIR - bebas dan adil. walau apa pun saya bangga jadi rakyat malaysia.
peh...mcm real jer tulis nih...mana ada orang cakap macam ni da...??apa apa pun semua di dunia ini bermula dengan nawaitu.

apa apa pun...setelah seminggu tukar menukar lakaran studio mengikut guidelines yg baru diberi saya rasa dicabar oleh pihak pihak tertentu disini. manusia tetap manusia....tamak,dengki dan tidak tertib adalah sesuatu yang paling susah ditamadunkan dan ia tidak mengenal bangsa dan ugama atau kepercayaan.
cabaran ini tidak boleh di tentang dengan kemarahan atau emosi. saya terima semua dugaan dengan buka hati walaupun ia dari kawan kawan akrab saya. walaupun mereka dianggap kawan tapi mereka hanyalah manusia biasa yg jauh dari sifat yg sempurna. SHANTI SHANTI SHANTI

semua cabaran ..baik atau buruk adalah cabaran yang akan membina saya. biar rasa susah dulu supaya semua akan menikmati kesenangan kemudian bersama sama.

WISH ME LUCK

check out the studio's blog!!

2011-07-14T11:06:00.000+02:00

the studio's first baby step to reality......

http://karmicmonkisonehotspot.blogspot.com

karmicmonkis one HOT spot!

2011-07-02T22:44:00.001+02:00

mmmmm on the way to the train station after a chat with an aquaintance fr the netherland..she asked ".....& u still want the business??" that was a question i ponder all nite last nite & all day today tooo...i guess it's a question i won't stop asking myself until answered! next question is WHEN?

a new chapter of the studio have begun... i am puzzled yet focus and i am surprise rather than shocked by the decision taken upon me.
i don't have an immediate remedy and my honesty & transparency policy of life have gotten me into a crooked bend again. i don't know what honesty promise me, where i am standing now it looks kinda promising.

again i thank god for my weird upbringing i have very strong faith in people. i believe in the goodness of people..u know everything in this world whether it's bad or good are thought and brought by human life just like you and me. war, iphones, mac computer,missiles,carpet, & peace too. someone might might think they're god but they are not. it's just an idea they had fr their mind.....see how ur mind works? there is no limit to what a human mind can do. if i choose to fear it then i will be forever damned, how can i allow that to happen? “A peace that depends on fear is nothing but a suppressed war.”

no i don't have a smartass solution to my problems....but i know that there are many options. all things happens for a reason bad & good! i just have to let it happen & believe in it! in islam u start everything with NAWAITU...or niat, in budshism one practice the act of creating the awareness from the seed of your intention, call me what you want & i just want to make sure one thing is clear.... everything i do whether it's simple decision such as dinner or big decision like owning my own studio i always do it with good & pure intention from the heart. it might not suit everyone's taste but i cannot have any grudge against them as that would be unfair. this also why i always get into trouble but i rather do that than getting others in trouble.

what ever the challenge might be, i have to respect it and try to make sense of it and share my point of view. unlike other people i do care about my karma and the karmas of other people associated with me directly or indirectly.

LIFE IS GRAND!

i just have

to know

Just trying..

2011-06-19T09:46:00.001+02:00

Standing bow pulling!!!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

JUNE is JUNE

2011-06-01T07:30:00.000+02:00

I T' S O N

life is a bliss at the moment!

may may may

2011-05-21T19:25:00.000+02:00

it's clearer & clearer that the studio is on it's way....exciting,challenging,intense....all the things u can think of is happening all at once...!!
in one sum this all got to do with the deal u can score or hope to score. what is it abt this yoga that makes me want to house it & embrace it...i always ask myself that everyday when i wake up .... is this really good? is bikram yoga really very good ... i mean each time i see the students & hearing all the questions ask...i wish i cld lie to them or be bogus...i couldn't ...i see it in their eyes that it means a lot to them & it's a milestone for them and i can't help it but to agree & i too feel the same every class i take it's a question of survival...i'm dizzy & hot flushes....spinning...o my god..sometime it's so bad that i have to visualize my children in different time of their life so i can get a seratonin stimulation...it's TRUE
i mean all the scientific studies of effects in yoga are endless....it's available all over the place.
all my life i am lucky enough to work with all the things i liked & enjoyed. but in the yoga business itself there r a lot of politics...& it's fucking handful!! but i take it with a smile...
my challenge in opening the studio is really a monetary/materialistic issue...i personally don't hv any problem or hang ups with money...i think my whole life 38 yrs have thought me a lot about money...too much is not good!! money is a tool not something you must have!

my parents suffer fr that & their relatives too....the indians have cast issues, we have class issues...my mom comes fr a wealthy indonesian family fr sumatra...somewhat royalty, rich & regal...like i care...but it has dented & made a strong impact in my personal life without me knowing...made me a bit of a social class snob & now i am a yoga snob...how did this happen?? ...not too sure...but i am aware of it.. & i can do something about it..perhaps?? i don't know

thank god for my dad i've become spiritual...more & more now that i am older. somehow when i think that i am adopted & have never met my birth parent...i somehow secretly wish if could meet up with thm before the end of our lifetime....there i said it!! of course i am ...everytime i do a light offering i always pray that the light i offer will shine the way for those who seek for me & that the light will seek the truth of my existence as a human being as i cannot accept any woman who has carried a child in their womb will be able to forget their existence together once at that point of life. together for 9 months.
when thing gets tough with my daily passion in pursuing a goal....i think of this & really reconnect to the reasons why i want to open this studio in the first place, why this yoga? why this way? is this the right way?? whose right way?? the journey in life sometimes separates us from our path to co exist but it also shows you the alternative options....& which ever you choose...you'll still make it back but just either longer or edgy way to go however the scenery is always beautifully interesting... & i am there at the moment...i am sitting back & enjoy what's presented before me!!

H E L L O L I F E !

Altona Hamburg Mon-Thurs

2011-04-22T18:14:00.001+02:00

Savasana

Training tracks

My first Hamburg frukost...DAT BACKHUS...gluten hell but I love it...I was speechless when I saw the variety of yumm-o pastries!!

Mendelsohnstrasse...Bikram Yoga Altona

Jungfernstig....

Rathaus....Monkenbergstrasse...downtown, by the Alster lake...beautiful city!

Highstreet begins...

Bikram Yoga Altona....

Sexy Claudia & Crazee Hans...beautiful couple with aura of fabulousness!!!

The door to all new possibilities!

Sweating meeting spot

Lennart & Claudia

Mendelsohnstrasse....#47...

Easter egg hunt??

Harbour....

Mr Chef....midnite cooking! these 2 is the most gracious couple....they work all day, he planned to watch footie but cancelled instead to spend time with me...like wht the....I'm flabbergasted...honoured...I'm truly lucky to have known you guys....

I mean look at her face....tired but gracious...I take my hat off to both of you! UBER COUPLE...

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

90 yrs

2011-04-10T17:46:00.001+02:00

aaaah many things are happening...many days have gone...many opportunities have missed....everything is just a breath away!!

Steady 6 counts in and steady 6 counts out...& in one breath I am celebrating 2 wonderful birthdays of my son who is 11yrs then my father who is 79 yrs and my dad who is 75 yrs....
the studio plan is coming along but today & this week I predict wld be a bit of a hold up!!!
But I am riding this low wave & hoping to hopp of to a higher one again...here r some pix

Berit is trying to SMS for the first time....Rik is helping her out

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Åse Nisse

2011-02-07T07:56:00.001+01:00

I am stoked it is finally here...i'll post pix fr the premier later!!!
How exciting!!!
Love too soon!

Location:Stockholm

2011-02-05T17:01:00.001+01:00

Saturday the 5th Feb...my kids have decide to abandon me & my hubby decided to take me out on a date...& I feel I loike eating meat...so we went down to Stortorget...local joint here in Lund!!
10 mins into the joint comes in a friend of Hubbyman...& here sitting nxt to them - they talk I write blogg....RUDE?...nope just an attempt to escape BOREDOM...
This incident occurs very often...I learn to live with it...I often wonder if this is the true recipe for long lasting marriage...well it works for me..
I mean i don't hv anything in common with any of his friends...who lives here on Lund...small town boys with small time thinking...doesn't bother me at all!
Just dropping some trail thought

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011-02-04T17:09:00.001+01:00

Here I'm with my IPhone & 2 glasses of wine feel
depressed with everything i had planned everything is go to fast....
My architect whose work was a mere 3 hr job is costing me 10,000 kr...feeling fucked anally & royally...my luck?
I got to do serkym...with all the deity I have at home & hoped for the best!!!!!!!
I am struggling to stay positive in my head & my ideas...the studio must come up or I might hv to move to another country with new possibility... SUCKS...a bit high after 2 glasses of wine but my head is still sharp...I'm conscious of my surrounding & there is a fat man reading what I'm writing nxt to me who happens to turn his head while I'm writing this.....wanker!
Love...& be love

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Pix tht makes me happy!

2011-01-07T09:40:00.001+01:00

Life is short!!! these people makes happy!!!!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Mommy's love

2011-01-02T09:30:00.001+01:00

First day of work for 2011 starts with Tilda on my bed....waking me up with kisses....

This year will be a good year!!!.....I promise

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2011

2010-12-31T19:53:00.001+01:00

Happy new year!!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

X'mas 2010

2010-12-24T16:08:00.002+01:00

...yeay IT IS here....christmas...wohooooo, although i thought we would miss it totally....fredrik & the kids were in stockholm for work....& they could NOT land in Sturup- can u believe it??? they landed in Gothenberg instead....ahahahahahaha & 5 hour bus ride later they arrive safely in Lund.....but we missed everything like x'mas food shopping & final gifts shopping.....for moi??? nope like every year nothing for me....well life goes on...at least we've sorted things out for everybody else....that's good!

the theme is BROWN PAPER PACKAGES WITH RED STRINGS & TRIMMINGS...old skool style!!! it looks good...really!!! i am pleased...but then... yesterday the kids opens their first presents - a package each...it took them a second to rumble & destroy all my hard work.....darn!
the oldies & ventura/lundqvist is joining us for x'mas dinner!! yummy!!

menu -
LEG OF LAMB WITH PIRI PIRI RUB ACCOMP. WITH CARROTS & POTATOES
SIDE DISHES- QUINOA & HALLUMI CHEESE ON BED OF GREENS

M E R R Y J U L E T I D E

2 0 1 0

eh...i sold itlah

2010-11-21T20:30:00.000+01:00

chup....i actually manage to sell my boots off on BLOCKET....so funny! 300kr + now...haaappppyy!

this week i have been teaching quite a bit ...sporadically but full on...tough week but satisfying & i got to practice too...so i am pleased with myself.
i am getting a lot of hardworking new students who seems to care very much about their personal well being....isn't that fabulous.
the journey with the dialogue is now getting very subtle & less demanding...i might actually like it a lot! aaaahhhh it's a great sense relief with i am not resisting it anymore & taking as easy as it comes ( not easy...trust me)
everyday i go to bed wondering if this what i get,want and hoping to do with the rest of my life....i am still wondering ..... will i be satisfied....is this it??
i always pray for the light & the hunch to know that this is the path i want to carve .... clearer notion showing perhaps TODAY would be good....hehehehhe well that the whole part of living the life isn't it??
i wanna excel in my practice....deepen my knowledge & learn more about what yoga has to offer!

loads & loads of love & light

stay cool,stockholm & pre requisite dinner...& bloody weather!

2010-11-11T19:00:00.003+01:00

....this week have been a total mess....from a mixture of fucked up messy idiots to screwed up weather in the capital...
i always wonder why is it like this...is the joke on me or is it playing a joke about me...i know that it's never about you (nikki) but why then....???

in general i feel cornered , no room for growth but a lot of room to loath about what should & could have been....TIRED OF IT.....stagnant is NOT my thang....
i want to go,move,slide, glide forward....i like escalator...i mean i don't need to have a fixed destination...i just like the journey....i like to travel...

my guru gehlek rimpoche is coming to netherlands soon & i truly want to go & and see him...more like i need to see him & feel hugged & love....forever...

i am still trying to identify what it is that is making me feel like this??? everything ...... right now is a effort....crap

aaaaarrrrrrggggggg

anyways love & peace to all sentient beings,may we all be free of hatred & ignorance!

all black boots for sale....good price always!

2010-11-03T18:58:00.000+01:00

janet&janet 800kr

camper 1500kr

soaked in luxury 500kr

dear friends,

i need to sell off things that i don't use....i mean i am adapting to non attachment philosophy...so help me please!!!

love ya loads

1st nov 2010-a week of bliss!

2010-11-01T09:29:00.001+01:00

listening to spotify to lately it's so quiet by okgo....funny pick but that's how my week is gonna go...i am kids & inevitably husband free....LIBERATED AT LAST.....

to those of you who do not have kids might think it's weird but i need some time alone to myself...i would like to concentrate on teaching,reading,analyzing & practicing yoga...i meant to pursue yoga therapy studies but i don't think i can make it this year but it'll come...when i'm ready!
i so am very grateful tht my hubby is taking them both to stockholm enjoying their autumn break in the city....great for me!!!
i am not planning for a royal yoga week but simply enjoying a few days without rushing & looking over my shoulders to see if i will be late...& just be myself!

my final moment of truth is today...where Misha will be taking my class and "feedback session" later after class! i am really looking forward to that and really discussing teaching with somebody out of the usual enviroment...i hope to learn loads & i hope to see the light of teaching at it's best.

before i go off to prepping for class...wish me luck & give some light of clarity & strength!

peace & love

N A M A S T E

misha,tattoo & sunlight!!

2010-10-18T09:58:00.000+02:00

shout out to Misha Soltis....she was staffing in Las Vegas whilst i was there killing myself for 9 weeks!
she is here in Malmo teaching & doing her feed back giving duties....i like...it's never easy to hear out wht,who u are when you teach but i've gone too deep in it that i don't really care much about accidentally taking in personally....i am looking forward to hear what she's got to say & she doing this professionally so she must be good!

i've learnt to let go

IN THE JUNGLE HUNTERS PLACE A BANANA IN A BAMBOO CAGE

THERE IS A HOLE JUST LARGE ENOUGH FOR A MONKEY'S HAND
THE MONKEY REACHES IN & GRAB THE BANANA
NOW HE CAN'T EXTRACT HIS HAND
HE HAS TRAPPED HIMSELF
TO GO FREE HE MUST SIMPLY LET GO OF THE BANANA
BUT OUT OF GREED & IGNORANCE HE HOLDS TIGHTLY TO THE ONE CAUSE OF HIS IMPRISONMENT
LET GO,LET GO,LET GO

i am that monkey sometimes.....

now....this ink business is here...it's today & i am kinda nervous....but excited!!! this is good to kill my anxiety....DIE

i'll post some pix later

Tilda The neuroelectro sunshine

2010-10-13T21:47:00.002+02:00

this is a picture of our Tilda,sometimes she is just as quiet as this....full of peace & loved to death!!!

Not in a correct mood... she can suck you out DRY
bless U, her future partner!!!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-10-10T17:42:00.001+02:00

fredag mys - en svensk hitta på mytos....it doesn't exist...hehehe
but we the boklunds do our best to make it happen every Friday...
And this is how it looks....mysigt va??

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

clarisonic & laser

2010-10-10T11:16:00.000+02:00

i 've looking at this product -CLARISONIC CLEASING SYSTEMS- for long long time....it's so expensive to go for a facial here in this country & to book time? that's a different story all together.....so it says tht it cleanses almost 6x better than the traditional way...& it's leaves skin "out of facial spa" feeling....i took the chance in buying it today...it is coming in 8-14days...i am hoping that it's worth the money....i am kinda broke this month...& the next few months coming....shit!!! not teaching as much either so i am hoping for nov & dec months to be more fulfilling & credit paying months...FUCK ME!!! in total i paid 1899kr which includes everything...like shipping & duty...

then comes LASER IPL TREATMENT....tht i've been thinking for a long, long time! something i've been thinking of doing when i was dancing & when i left the scene i kinda stop thinking about & i've always said if & when i go back to dancing & perhaps teaching dancing or now turns out to be yoga i need to get it out of my way....ok i am asian i don't have much hair....& there is nothing more frustrating than shaving the traingle or booking a waxing session....i hate it...so i've now booked a 4 sessions with LENHUD in LUND...& it seems to be kinda less painful payment scheme...u pay 1200kr each time you do your treatment & there is 6 weeks in between so it's not all in one shot payment! so i just need to have steady flow of classes so tht i can afford to keep on paying the sessions....all in all it's well progressed plan so now i just need to save money for driving school....i need a driver's license.....especially now...& a toyota AYGO to go with it!!

i will inflict pain on myself in the next few months...& i am looking forward to it! **better i inflict pain on myself than somebody else.....**

never 2 classes ever the same...never 2 intentions ever the same either...

2010-10-08T12:38:00.000+02:00

ahahahahahahahaha what a friday...i came to malmo with the intention of taking Maya's class as i gave my class to her so i can take my kids shopping...& it turns out i am teaching class instead.....&&&&& all these cute guys comes to Maya's class????....no wonder i get everybody else.....ahaahahahahahaha
well i think i taught a good class....and i had loads of fun...i did!!!
i am always the happiest in class...i love making people smile & laugh...i figured if i can just make one , numero uno ...1 person happy & feels good about her/himself....than i hit the jack pot...that is what this thing is all about...really...i mean can't save the world but i can help ONE individual soul!!

peace & love

i am for world peace....

2010-10-07T09:57:00.001+02:00

here i am sitting in my home reading,catching up with the world news.....it is very disturbing that the whole world is going into pieces & i am here in my home watching it happen...SAD...

i've been home alone with the kids now almost 2 weeks & 3 more weeks to go.....i wonder how many of my girlfriends will exchange their life with me....i am not saying that mine is worse or better than others but i am very curious to find out exactly where i am in life....my husband claims that we are well of....i claim otherwise...we don't have anything saved...we bought a house here in sweden & we are renting in m'sia & yes we travel home to KL once a year & enjoy malaysia for what it is...i don't know if this is "well off" or if this is out of the ordinary in normal humble homes of others??? but i/we dont do anything else...everything is a routined habits...

yet with all these ideas of where i am in life taken into consideration...i am still not satisfied, i feel i should being doing something else that is lucrative & more soul fulfilling! i mean i can eat out everyday if i want to but is that fun??...i want to feel FULL...haven't had that feeling for a long time....

i am missing something & i don't know what it is....i am not a "looking person"....= i need a challenge!

i need to find inner peace, my own inner peace!!

love & light

I still alive

2010-10-04T13:06:00.001+02:00

Hola, I've not blogged for a long time....I am in-between iPhone & Blackberry phase...don't know which is better.... I am still learning to type with the iPhone & it's driving me super insane!!!!
however the blackberry is not really a complete service here in Sweden ie.no BB apps like WTF r we not in the first frontier land???
well life goes on & I am happy!!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-09-29T20:38:00.001+02:00

Ahahahhah i can still blog with mu iphone as dator aaaaarrrrhhhh

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

eid mubarak

2010-09-12T11:51:00.000+02:00

selamat hari raya

aidilfitri

E I D

M U B A R A K

i would like to take this opportunity to wish all muslims eid mubarak!!! and to my very good gal pal in Singers.....congratulations to number 2!!!! wonderful news indeed...jadi baby raya!!

take care & post me some pix please....love you all!

altar me altar you

2010-09-10T21:19:00.001+02:00

my white Tara nestled in her new green bed....

RATNASAMBHAVA

My whole altar....complete and ready for more action!!!!

Very please with everything i am now complete!!!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-09-06T23:06:00.001+02:00

Connection,connection,connection!!!

I don't wanna be connected at all but I need to connect in order to stay connected.…

C O N F U S E D

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

redloop's party

2010-09-02T17:53:00.001+02:00

we r here in malmö...at a party..a company party!!! As usual I think is incredibly wonderful to see so many creative people....super trendy!
however It is soooooo incredibly boring when it's your hubby who is invited and I have forgotten how to be a DOLL....must be the yoga thing...too hot to be a DOLL
anyhow i can't help but notice this wonderful ventilation system the have here in the office!!!

nice eh??? it would be cool to have it in a hot yoga studio....
saw a very nice house with a studio potential......bank boss!!! Print me some dosh PLEASE

Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

aaaaiiiyyyaaaahhh liberty!

2010-08-26T10:41:00.002+02:00

i have deactivated both of my facebook......funny i actually feel liberated....liberated yg sangat sangat...wow!
i've gone a bit weird in the last year or so i think....lost the directions to my own life philosophy ....feeling stutter or somewhat bumped feeling terbantut.....why am i a Yoga teacher?....i mean did i manifest it some how?? did i think it thru?? how & what is life after teacher training? did i want this? i mean why,who,what....how,so??
i made annual pilgrim back to malaysia as usual...every summer & consciously chose not to yoga - bikram yoga that is, to see if IT matter at all? and wht did i find?? well...well many things...& i found myself again,my old me...funny,strange quirky,loud and happy me....i am so happy that i did it, i truly found the reason why i gave my heart & my soul to this form of yoga...it truly fulfill my physical needs and gap! this whole trip became a spiritual journey as well ...little did i know i do have well wishing friends with loads of fabulous meetings & plans!especially BIBI KEPOH...everything extraordinaire!

i found myself a wonderful guru and i got initiated to be his student...HE Gehlek Rimpoche....i got blessed by him too & he knows Stieg Larsson the author.....although i don't really read his work but ok....dude is updated!! his hands were warm & his presence was very light and very pleasant!he got a very husky..choky voice tht i still here in my head when i do my daily sadhanas...and i feel truly empowered! i think everyone should read his book GOOD LIFE GOOD DEATH.....oh my god so good....easy simple & powerful!

i am truly blessed to be part of the BUDDHA SHAKYAMUNI initiation in Malaysia...WOW...i left the centre feeling that i'm back onto the directions of my life philosophy....so i am back on track! everybody has a mission in this life for others or themselves...& mine is to make people enjoy life in their own vessel(body)through yoga, honor my true responsibilities in life, Rik & Rae Tilda my children to bring them up the best way i can, a FANTABULOUS wife, trying very hard to reduce unnecessary consumption like maintaining healthy & sustainable diet & lifestyle, less carbon print,less waste...less is more. it's seems a lot but it's a realistic goal.

this the link to HE Gehlek Rimpoche organization http://jewelheart.org/. check it out & see his trail of work!

ahhhhaaaa my birthday is it???

2010-08-22T21:40:00.000+02:00

23/08/2010

so my birthday is here....i am stoked! many things have happened to me in the last 12 months....many love things,met lovely people! kids,work,spirituality.......all these important qualities that matters....i am getting better in dealings with my inner demons....(need to want more than i should) i mean life is MARVELOUS so happy birthday to me & happy birthday to all of you out there.

2010-08-19T16:33:00.000+02:00

windows

-

New door.... pintu baru

Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

we r home

2010-08-19T16:30:00.000+02:00

we arrived early this morning....not sure if i am tired but definitely STRANGE
hse is a mess due to major window & door change
the hall is so brite..... we are getting more light coming in so here it is.....
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

2010-07-31T10:04:00.000+02:00

We r in Penang.....celebrating 11th year of our annivessary! Java Suite in E&O hotel......we love it!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Location:Lebuh Farquhar,George Town,Malaysia

Bali zoo sama tante girang!

2010-07-06T03:51:00.000+02:00

nona manis Trinity!

farmer Rik!
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Bali 2010

2010-07-02T06:42:00.000+02:00

we r in Bali..... we r so blessed and loved....all the hard work and pain have paid off......I can finally afford a holiday for my kids! Paid all by MAMMA! nice it's like it should be!
aaaaahhhhh villa NEO in babakan-canggu....it's far off but it doesn't really matter to me coz I love it & my kids are smiling fr ear to ear...the owner is away and the hostess is truly gracious....as her name BELLA lovely! the agent VERA is god's gift to a single mom on holiday!
I'll post loads and loads and loads of pix.....

View fr the lounge when we have breakfast.....

kids and lovely Feli fr Sumba

COCO the pupp

our pool....what can I say i am truly blessed!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

ali & tilda

2010-06-20T10:12:00.000+02:00

mozzie bitezzzzz

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

@ pool

2010-06-18T09:57:00.000+02:00

this trip is probably the most tiring trip....just tired but my brain is super alert but my body was just screwed took my very first practice for this trip...iyengar wow what a great way to start the stay......yogashakti with parvin! was a bliss...co incidently we/ I found maple's pole studio...tried that for a quick 10mins.....my wings are activated & omg

....sore but I want more! She is in my list of fave so pls check it out if u r in kl....like Rik says when things r cool -awesomeNESS!
but here pix fr the poolness....life sucks with out it!

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

out with allie ting tong

2010-06-18T09:45:00.000+02:00

we r on a makan day....as usual..hehehe

late sunset in Copenhagen airport before we leave for bkk-kul

Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

cph - kul

2010-06-15T21:09:00.000+02:00

waiting,waiting.....kids are getting crazy....

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

last hour

2010-06-15T17:21:00.001+02:00

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

twentyten to kl

2010-06-15T08:01:00.000+02:00

excited....but tired...chiling out in the bed until our hearts content...

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Location:lund

summer 2010...all the best things in life

2010-06-14T09:24:00.000+02:00

strolling after school on the way home....the street we live on in Lund!

MOA'S CHRISTENING 12/6/10

2010-06-12T09:48:00.001+02:00

allison & emil

allison's old christening gown...very pretty!!!

milo god dadda

moa li wong toi ekeblad

milo is taking god father 's roll very seriously

aaahhh new look....heheheh today my goddaughter's christening....can't to see her....she soooooo adorable!
new zealand chinese & swedish......so very cute! i'll post pix later

saturday & the city!!

2010-06-05T19:31:00.001+02:00

i finally practiced today...this week in class i shared some cultural diff between asian and european...tapped on women's issues...like the art of confinement! i would love to introduce confinement for new mothers here in sweden...we can do it here bcoz we have the time...but of course the it takes a bit of tweaking but it's possible!

i feel more comfortable in my own skin again....i teach better and better classes,i feel better & better abt my teaching as well! these pass few weeks are about survival, surviving to enjoying whats coming...summer holidays!

rik and tilda are getting bigger and more independent....kinda cool! this year is very important for her, she is moving to higher heights with bigger & better challenges! i hope that she'll enjoy making more friends & stay as curious as she is now. curiosity leads to creativity and honestly fredrik & i are not interested in raising straight A kids...mutually we want to have kids who are happy with themselves,social,compassion,kind...because i/we believe when u have that as a base inevitable they will become smart & intelligent children. we are fortunate & very blessed!
honestly i am fairly tired of the same routine....this will be a good change!

LOVE & LIGHT

2010-05-23T18:10:00.000+02:00

JASON WINN

have a wonderful journey

loads of

L O V E

L I G H T

i will carry the warmth of your light with me as long as i live!

N A M A S T E

love in the month of may!!!

2010-05-21T20:59:00.002+02:00

ASA NISSE has started....first day of shoot was this monday 17th May....everything went well i hope i have not heard otherwise....no news is always a good news!

mahatma gandhi says HAPPINESS IS WHEN WHAT U THINK,SAY & DO IS IN HARMONY....

i really think it's so true...but there are also many levels of happiness..for the most part i am so very happy & grateful that we as a family is doing so well but personally it's been rocky...with work with the studio that i want to own.....it's a bit shaky....but i am not giving up....u know... it's just a whole big fog in front with zero visibility. other than that i am very very happy....some people would die to have my life.
rik have grown up rapidly these pass few months....he is starting to take the bus on his own & he likes to hang in town and fika with me....how cool?...me loike it very much!

life is a saga...teaching has brought me to another level of understanding...i've become more forgiving, more encouraging & more tolerant!! contemplation has another meaning for me now.....hehehe...it's amazing how one can change one's mind by not contemplating too much....take it easy...spontaneous is the key!

i am grateful for what this life has given to me! all the good & the bad are equally opposite motions that balances out everything.

N A M A S T E

windows & dialogue....

2010-05-03T11:59:00.000+02:00

today the workmen came to fix & change the windows in our 1924 house.....it's looking very good & fast!!!
i had a bit of MALU incident....one of the guys went up to check out the current state of mentioned windows....aaaannndd taaaaddaaaaaahhh!!!! my panties were on the floor....to make it worse it wasn't the nicest looking one but not the worse ones either....and he actually stepped on it...and i had to pick it up and bashfully smile whilst doing it.....wakakakakakaka.....i never thought this would happen to me but it did!!!

anyway the dialogue saga....aiyah what can i say...i had to read it all over again & just kept on sayin it over & over again....the truth is i am really questioning if i want to teach for the rest of my life & please u can own the business without being "the teacher"...i know that!

sometimes i have to really physc myself up to go into the class & the studio...is that normal? finding the fundamental reason why the dialogue is good for you or why it is so important for you....can be rather challenging.... i don't know why it's good for you.....perhaps it makes everything seems easier when you get into the room and teach the words you learned?? i don't know.....
the fact that i spent too much money & too much time into this, i have to FUNDAMENTALLY get the money back or at least i don't want it to feel like one of those debt that you sort of like let go... you're kinda let it dissolves....i don't know...or maybe the truth of the truth is that i felt that i am not good enough teacher to teach b'coz every time i teach the feedback i get is always more corrections.....practice makes perfect...but who am i perfecting it for....PERFECT according to who??...that question lies beneath ...WHO???
aiyah i am just a girl fr TAIPING my life not complicated you know...alamak penatlah!

NAMASTE

iceland iceland iceland......

2010-04-20T08:57:00.000+02:00

i never thought this will happen to me.....i am stranded but not really stranded....i am home with my family but nothing seems to work.....my passport is running out & it feels my life is running out....and i heard last nite there are about 30,000.00 people are stranded in between airport.....SKIT ALLTSA!!

all of happens for a reason??? i don't know how i can solve this...should i cancel my flight and go up to sthlm or should i risk & travel on a less then a month passport to malaysia with my swedish my kids.....strange....

we'll see...

080410 NO PLASTIC DAY

2010-04-08T10:10:00.000+02:00

ssshhhhh.......teddy b quiet.....!!!! 10 yrs ago our prince was born.....he is becoming a wonderful soul....full of love and life!

extremely compassionate & caring and full of expressions at the same time....I LOVE RIK....probably the best thing ever happen to me....he opens my eyes,calms me down and madeit very clear how life is so short to be bothered by small things......

every year since the last 3 yrs our family declared NO PLASTIC DAY and everyone seems to remember it and to embrace it....well done i am deeply touched & deeply moved by it...WOW...
so chill out on the plastic today...just for a day and maybe this helps to make the world a better day one day.....we can't change everything all at once but we can take small steps to it make the change........
live life & heads up..............

RECYCLE,REUSE

R E D U C E

tua tua buah kedondong!!!

2010-04-07T04:18:00.000+02:00

it's barely 4am....i thought i should write this to start my brain..........shit!!! don't think it's working....anyway i since started teaching my classes varies sometimes fr 6.30 till 20.30 in the evening....weirdly i prefer the 6.30am........cos then i can tuck my kids to bed!!!
but when in the moment ....i hate it......why, why,why........i have to get up 3.45am get ready starts the stomach - i drink warm water to flush out the waste in my intestine-.........up & running, off to some android brekkie...mana ada org mkn pagi pagi ni???........then get ready brush teeth,shower a bit, change to clothes...start thinking about what i should say in class....???? get out ...& on to the 5.13 train....then it's show time......
shit life surely full of shit.............

the toyaness of life sometimes say too much of actual reality of my life........but i can't complaint...my life is abundance compare to many......i just need to chill out & enjoy it as it comes!!!

in TT u say..........

HI MY NAME IS NIKKI
I AM YOUR YOGA TEACHER

W H A T T H E F U C K???

N A M A S T E

again what the fuck???

easter, pask..& good friday!!!

2010-04-02T10:52:00.000+02:00

this is tilda dress in the style of paskkarring.....somekind of witch....i'm not to sure what it is...but she looks kind cute in it!
my passport saga will be history soon....cannot wait...so i am going home for a week fr the 19 - 26 april...aiyah..i hate flying alone, i hate leaving my kids....but once i have this i can move on living like a normal person....
i wish there is a world passport...where you belong to all countries in the world.....**sigh**
i have been looking into the possibilities of owning my own studio ...living the dream of dreams....i dunno if it's going to work but i can still dream about it.....if this happens it would the smartest thing i 've ever done considering i will be paying 63% tax this year.....i might as well own it...why get your hands dirty when u can jump into the dirt & get your whole self dirty....
when i look at my kids i want to give them more than just a comfy life i want to give them an optimal healthy lifestyle.....as close as a religion, a belief...a way of life....i am an anti religion kinda person...i don't believe that one is born into a religion merely by birth.....CRAP....but i do believe having a strong faith, knowing what is wrong or right.....taking care of yourself & living healthily, sensible,kind to your environment......SOUND LIFE.....

I MANIFEST, I HOPE, I WISH & I LIVE

I E N J O Y

H A P P Y E A S T E R

2010

awaken by awareness

2010-03-25T09:16:00.002+01:00

diciple ask lord buddha ARE YOU THE MESSIAH (GOD) he says no, diciple ask again ARE YOU A HEALER? he says no....ARE YOU A TEACHER? he says no i am not a teacher.....diciple then ask .....WHO ARE YOU.....?? lord buddha says i am awake......

i just like to point out how much this is true...recurring in our daily life that we are not awake....i mean we are awake from sleep...but we are not awake mentally.....therefore everything becomes a fasade....then becomes a shell of our true SELF not knowing where to go because one is not awake.....so inevitable we don't see our life path.......so i come to a conclusion ...we all suffer the syndrome....LIGHT IS ON BUT NO ONE IS HOME.......come and ignite the light of our soul and be awaken by presence of our breath and see & enjoy life the way it should be!!

L O V E & B E L O V E

my new rambut...

2010-03-13T12:24:00.000+01:00

.........jenny palmqvist...revisited.........always good............

JENNY & JESSICA

slottsg. 32

211 33

malmo

040 302909

http://www.thenaturalstore.co.uk

2010-03-06T11:16:00.000+01:00

CHECK THIS OUT

http://www.thenaturalstore.co.uk

karmicmonkis

2010-03-04T12:34:00.000+01:00

K A R M I C M O N K I S

it's open.........it's ready!! got the letter fr skatteverket...it's official!!! KARMICMONKIS wohoooooo
feeling very positive,exciting...curious about what this year about to offer me/us....

teaching is going better & better...reading up loads on anatomy...our human body is such a wonderful thing, it really needs very little to live a healthy life, which brings the attention to what we've done to destroy our enviroment???
i feel guilty, is wrong the new right??? religion is the oldest form of law & order...but did they know that we are killing ourselves out of it...the law & order of mankind but not mother earth...it's cliche but did they? well i don't hv any answer to that but damage is done..let's make it better!
now that i have a company in the first world, it's just a fraction but i'll do my best to make the world a better place to live......KARMICMONKIS LOVES YOUUUUUUUUUUU

herr nilsson & friends goes to k.l

2010-02-20T13:09:00.000+01:00

herr nilson @ the airport...off to malaysia

...a young fashion victim.....ambik kau!

brother & sister...on the train, bon voyage!!

2 flirty monkis

herr nilsson & miss teddy cup cake

in love...mmmm

my 2 fav person in the world ...

everybody loves fredrik...**sigh**

random pix of tt 09...........viva las vegas

2010-02-20T12:55:00.000+01:00

chicks in da hood.....

vegas in a blurr...last nite....

rock it baby...cold dessert wind gushing on my face...

the very last hour bfore i leave this city of sins...

......a hmmmm

selamat tinggal

vegas!

insane guide to open a swedish sole prorietor's company

2010-02-20T10:51:00.000+01:00

KARMICMONKIS

u must be a pr. residence at least 5 years
e legitimation
skatterverket- och avgiftsanmalan
bolagsverket - to patent the name you want, regional or nation wide - sek 1200 or respectively

that's it...now it sounds easy but it's tricky so read very carefully the fill it up...in bolagsverket however u can't change any info once you're done with costing you anything...so think it thru!
i'm slowly going forward but i got to get e-legitimation....so that got to wait.....aaaarrr monday!

is the light off??

2010-02-18T16:07:00.000+01:00

coming to the end of my first week of teaching...mixed feelings... can't seen to find the spark i had bfore i left for kl...i better find it soon...or this is not going to be good!

so i got to learn the dialogue....do i like the dialogue? i have nothing against the dialogue...i hate it when i have to....to do what ever...then it becomes a chore....arrrgghh!

but u got to do what u got to do....

2010-02-11T20:38:00.001+01:00

i came home to this...the kids made it for me.... i finally hv the time to look thru all the pictures taken here & there + i found my mem card converter & of course my wonderful big comp! life can't be better...

workspace

buddhaman...wassup?

irony of it all...yoga+casino for 9weeks= insane

emma C & mei ng...fellow m'sian! cutest thing...

something on the strip...

bob the dude & nikki

i love this picture....i cried & cried..when he left...mmm i still cry when i think of him

BOB I MISS YOU OLDIE!!!

my first connection.....i will never forget you...divine miss T

me looking creative.....fuck i'm bored!

sassy rabbit in chaps #1

sassy rabbit in chaps # 2, well done miss brown, love ya!

japan restaurant where i got picked up by a korean...then he suddenly lost interest when i told him that i 'll take all my 7 kids there tomorrow for lunch...

OH FREAKED OUT IS IT?

manga cartoon look a like...pookimoon?

mr beat...."bay @"

stupid americans....leave the man alone...

bob & i are teachers....what do you know?

confuse tourist/yogis...but not really asian...no?yes?

huh? ok...peace

bobbabaloooo

fr malaysia with love

2010-02-08T19:34:00.000+01:00

2010

F E B R U A R Y

k.lumpur was good, we all had a good time,visited friends & family...but a bit too rushed...5 weeks not enough....

my dad is feeling better & everyone is doing well, nice to see that! i've eaten a tad bit too much....showing on my waistline...or now becomes waste time.....aiayah...age is catching up...metabolism is almost a *non exist state*.....sigh*** teh tarik=2 yoga classes.....i drank loads...sigh** nevertheless....i'll kick my own ass this week before i teach again next week! dang...at mean time i'll try to post pix of our adventure.....B E H O L D

2009 on to 2010

2009-12-30T19:01:00.001+01:00

2010 hear i come......

2009 has made me realise what i could achieve if i just trust myself & give it a go.....taking everything in consideration and just have blast!

this time last year i 've never felt so strong about something and believe it enough so i could see it & chase it!

a lot of sacrifices are made, a lot of adjusting and loads loads loads & loads of patience.....i mean i've always known i marry the right man but i didn't know i marry THE man...truly blessed....my kids should win a medal....medal for being the COOLEST KIDS ON THE PLANET!!!! no mamma for 64 days & never complaint...not a single time...i mean how cool is that?

a lot of schedule been unscheduled a lot of promises been broken & forgotten! nonetheless i enjoy my teaching career & i enjoy helping people enjoying themselves,owning their body & working it so everything works the way it should. i love making people love life again, pulse to bounce with their rejuvenated improved mind. feels good!

thank you to all of you

i hope 2010 will make me a better,stronger,wittier,loving nikki who is every right a wife,a daughter,a mom,a sassy girlfriend,a godma & now a bikram yoga teacher! i am so very blessed

N A M A S T E

i salute the light within you

love

loved

2009-12-26T22:26:00.001+01:00

Boxing day in lund 2009

2009-12-26T21:09:00.001+01:00

2009-12-20T10:05:00.000+01:00

kristyn berreyl...not sure how u spell it...she is a star!
kimberly reed....lives in vegas she has a wicked laughter...i miss you babes!
people, yogis.....all the pretty things!

last class,last nite before graduation.
latin....italian,spanish & canadian italian bellisimo
prettiest smile....erika mankee
divine miss T....i love you
karin zemp.....super swiss
i don't what happen....
scott & his abs.....
nitemare over....i want to go home!!

HAPPINESS

JOB WELL DONE

9 WEEKS OF PURE ADRENALINE

SOMETIMES

STUPIDITY

WE R ALL TEACHERS

WE DO HAVE THE BEST JOB

THE

W O R L D

ENCOURAGING HEALTHY LIFE

FOR BETTER FUTURE

fashionably late......pix fr TT 09

2009-12-20T09:45:00.001+01:00

my fav BETH WARNER

boss & ma'am

juan upside down

mmmmm maybe one day...
keila & my famous glasses & herself with bikram in poorna salabasana......NICE

scott spellman spelling eagle....

craig...girlman...

i am trying to post as many pictures i've taken while in vegas....it took a long time...i don't know why. sitting in my living room with internet connection only fit for royalties....the u.s have a lot to catch up with the rest of the world. and for fuck sake they got to stop charging 2 way phone call....i mean that is just robbery....pure robbery!

i spent 2000kr the first week on mobile phone charges.....i mean that just bcoz 2 way phone charge,2usd per sms & 16 kr per min to call sweden!

we do pay a lot of tax here in scandinavia but at least we make life bearable to communicate! and 1 more thing...why can't they just sort the whole price with tax....u see when u buy something for 99 cents ...u don't really....+8.5 % sales tax....i mean fuck me already!!!!

more pix coming.....wait

Solid is x'mas!

2009-12-15T19:15:00.001+01:00

Skål fy fann

Hahaha i'm home!

2009-12-07T13:31:00.003+01:00

First beer in 9 weeks! Out with the gang in my fave lunch stället

2009-12-07T13:31:00.001+01:00

Moby and things

2009-12-07T13:30:00.003+01:00

Vegas & fluffy towel

2009-12-07T13:30:00.001+01:00

Emms my room mate

week 7

2009-11-22T01:54:00.000+01:00

seven,sju,tujuh,chiu,chit,chat.....

i've discovered a lot of things about myself this week or rather i found confirmation of my personality... i am a true observer,i notice people, i like watching people....is that wrong?

well i am embarking myself into the teaching world i must observe people...coz their heads might drop out in my class....i mean how fucked would that be...but however there is a super fine line between noticing & criticising.....that i don't do unless if u a total idiot...

more pics later .... going to O tonite!

rik's fine calligraphy....

2009-11-16T20:04:00.000+01:00

rik's calligraphy

well done buddy!

jewels of my life

2009-11-16T19:59:00.000+01:00

rik sqooshy woshie

tootsie tilda

the two darling of my life & the toes of joshie........life can't get any better to be so far away from home & know that my kids are taken care of by friends & family, monster doing their practice.....i'm very blessed & i do have a fantabulous life...won't trade it for anything!

week 6

2009-11-15T08:25:00.001+01:00

random people i meet everyday....taking year book pix fr the rooftop....very nice!
this week we got thru almost the whole series....we've got 6 postures to go!
i am enjoying the whole weekend on my own...very nice!
63 dollars a nite. money well spent!
we had dinner at hugo's cellar...very cozy & fancy!
for the first time i had loads of fun doing dialogue & did my dance...felt great!
i think i don't give 2 toss abt it anymore.....i got to like what i do , when i do it!
i hope to do my class without passing out....i mean me & any student...those poor people!

there is a light at the end this tunnel and i am looking at it...bless my sweet soul

ELLO I'M NIKKI, I AM YOUR YOGA TEACHER......RUNNNNNN

4 weeks to go

2009-11-08T07:54:00.002+01:00

4 weeks to go ...can you believe it???

everything is going well & i'll write more later during the week & up load more pix.....right now...more dialogue!

catch up soon!!!
love all of you

week 5

2009-11-01T08:37:00.000+01:00

this week flown buy so very quickly.....posture clinic went by & i could nail some of it so i am very proud of myself...i have functional brain...cool
it's good to know that the teachers are normal human being like us....makes me feel normal! had study group yesterday & we r doing very good, i mean i don't want to feel that i'm better than anyone but i'd like to feel good about myself& satisfied!
yoga is yoga....is all about trying

i hope week 5 will be good. nothing comes easy in life....honest intention always makes a good deed!
i'll post some pix soon

WHAT DO YOU DO.....?

2009-10-26T01:56:00.001+01:00

leisure &pleasure

BETH WARNER

finally got the pix uploaded thru bluetooth and trying to write descriptions but seems to fail endlessly....100 points for trying....well i'll have more patience next time. i saw mr bob dylan in hard rock hotel...he was happy & we were not allowed to take pix in the arena...weird...but i guess americans like their privacy...but uhhh whatever..so i took some pix here as a prove that i saw him!!! or
we saw him beth and i......wihoo

boys doing standing head to knee pose...when u do it too many times u need to have a chair....lazy cuties!

emma C's birthday today...yeay!! we took her out and had thai food..lotus of siam you rock!

what a party?.....mmmm boys and shorts! or is it boys in shorts...

i mean they are truly boys....haaaaah.......oh well

week 4

2009-10-25T20:04:00.000+01:00

dadadadada

so we had early nites last week...& according to all sources this is the week to die of fatigue....well they're doing a good job! posture clinic went well for me...what can i say, i offer my best & my best is all i have & i'm honest about it. i fuck up here & there no biggie...it's never a problem until you make it into one!!!

tomorrow is the beginning of the 4th week and we have bikram the man,dr. T and more late nites....i guess they've got it all packed with action! posture clinic is on too...done 2 postures so happy with that!

well the good news is that if you happen to get the dialogue or can't be bother to read it before or whatever and to be here and have no desire to do anything else but yoga...then you will have time to do it.....take it easy....& chill.

don't let the dialogue takes over you...then you know it's not good! don't let anything take your peace from you even if it's core reason why you are here! only you know who you are!!!

much love & gratitude

ps. i'm still in the same room...bless my soul!

week 3

2009-10-20T01:07:00.000+02:00

LIFE SUCKS

at this very monday life literally sucks.....eveything to do with yoga is excellent! class with emmy was great super great...she creeps up to people correcting their posture....hahaha

looking forward for more class with her, later in the afternoon we had DR. T ....mmmmm maybe it's the first class...i don't what to make of it...his wife of 56yrs were super funny....i could see that in my marriage..i'll be an old bitch & fredrik old man....o ya emmy who 80 something did say MENTAL MASTURBATION.....i will use that in my class.....no mental onani in my class...no ma'am!

i got to sort my room situation out.....i'll post more with more exciting results & saga.....

LIFE SUCKS

on that note...suck your stomach in & lock your fucking knee...no knee!

vegas week 2

2009-10-15T20:31:00.000+02:00

life sucks at the moment, i need to breathe! tried to fix my communication stuff last week at it didn't work....fuck best buy, boulevard mall...i hate u with a passion!

so everything here in the u.s sucks for tourist....don't quite like but trying very hard to look pass it....so i can breathe.
had my cramp last nite...so i know now...tingling sensation....pedialyte taste like shit!
well in my home studio a lot of people say, they don't skip a postures and eric ask me why i fall out of standing bow pulling pose....well i think the answer to that is the only thing i do is my best...and best is the only thing i have...nothing else...i always have my best intentions,my best efforts and i don't think falling out of a posture is a big deal as long as you give your solid best...nothing else!
this week's lecture is all about being succesful....not trying to be one..but just be one...a success!
the only in life i try hard beyond best is my marriage,my kids and my buddies.....other than that i don't give a toss!...in other words i'm a success....ahaaa!!

no pix yet my phone does't work & i forgot my usb connectors.....got to get it this weekend & hopefully i can post some pix!

love you all

las vegas.... & fluffy hair & towel...aik cheong coffee

2009-10-05T18:01:00.000+02:00

landed,scrutinised,wondered,hugged & smiled...finally i've arrived in america & las vegas....

slot machine state.....fat people..i should maybe move here i'd never run out of job!!!

met emma c...my wife for 9 weeks,got married yesterday moved in bought our very kettle & toaster...aaahhhhh

we were welcome by the staff members...nice & getting very very real...rajashree & lajoo was so pretty..saw the glimpse of bikram 7 his hat...smashing...!!!

well folks i'm alive & pretty...until maybe later...love ya!!

ps. no pix yet my phone blogging thingy don't work & can't buy an iphone...i crossed at the moment..fuck

it's now or never....

2009-10-02T19:30:00.003+02:00

i've just popped in the last few laundry before i go tomorrow....many things pops into my mind...how will i handle it tomorrow......my credit card....oh don't forget my malas & my chanting book....i mean many odds & bits of redundant things to do....mania asked me earlier today...if i was nervous....jasmine g asked me this morning if i was nervous.....i mean nothing wrong with the question....but nervous??
i am freaking curious....divine Mr C is the last thing in my head, i'm nervous that i'll get stuck in the customs or immigration.....other than that...i'm ok but curious....so very curious!
plus i'm pleasantly surprised that many were wishing me well & they remember me.....even mr ulf...i mean so gonna help in his supta vajrasana....no huffing & puffing sir....just sit your ass down on your spanking mat...mmmmmmm i mean i'll be screwed while i'm there right??...you bet but i'll take it..& i'll take it with all honesty....

life will get you no where if don't set your intentions honestly....i cannot promise you anything but whatever happens i'm honest about it.....i only have this body...this brain but if i'm not honest, u might as well shoot me....

once again i am very very very grateful that i get to meet these people who has become my extended family & that i hv a great unit who supports me....i will be forever blessed & forever loved, that's a cool feeling!

heads up...vegas madam lee coming.....hehehehe

vegas in 3 days....

2009-09-30T17:42:00.000+02:00

how do you pack panties for 9 weeks???......go, going....soon gone...
this whole packing and going thing is getting to me....today i had my very first & last goodbye with jenny p...u rock by the way....now it's exactly when u want time to stop....just stop....tick tock tick tock
my brain is tired from anticipating what things will become or how things will become....i now feel exhausted....drained....no expectation......just love & peace
i have everything credit card,ticket,visa,hotel booked,roomie sorted,bag packed,some cash, completed my 30 day challenge (tomorrow)......things r on track.....i'm reciting ardha chandrasana like as if it was made for me.....i just realise this is not a self realisation journey for me, this is a unification between my private life & my practice...i am a better wife,mother & friend if i am at ease with myself...so chill mama...

at the moment

MY LIFE

ROCKS

i am blessed!

bikram yoga malmo turned 2

2009-09-27T10:15:00.000+02:00

RAW FOOD

lovely mat tanten at their best.....guro & trine

joshie...working hard

hallway to heaven...or changing room

down below

birthday chairs for mine & allison

misscheavious ladies in the house.....what can i say 2 nikkis is always better than one

welcome to skane me lady!!

happy b'day bym!!!

lavenders and many pretty things

studio turned 2 this sept & it's nice to part of it and it's my first year...wow!!! talking abt life changing year...life couldn't be better!

the big 2

ardha chandrasana...u memang hantulah

2009-09-24T09:40:00.001+02:00

stage fright??? whats that?? i have performed in front of thousands of people, whether it's solo & group...i've even sung in boom boom room and in the other venues but why can't i get the words out? where has it gone to...is it because i 'm shy?? possible but why now?
i think one of my problems is that i've not been doing this for a long time.
people are expecting me...more that i think in my head (it's a lot easier to blame yourself in this situation!) people are expecting me to get everything right...it's a challenge for me to just let it go...who cares if i make mistakes, who cares if i don't get it right....i don't think it's important to be right all the time. u are human...or maybe if you are a bikram yogini u r not? fucked as it is...i just have to carry on...at times like this i can't help but wonder if is this worth my time time? leaving my family behind & pays loads of dosh to get screwed by a half bald sweaty indian man?
well first thing first i got to stop giving myself and others excuses and just fucking do it....i 've chosen to do this, i've chosen to leave my family behind,my sick dad & my handicapped brother & my bittered mother......i can only hope for my white freaking cotton socks...i'll ROCK it!
.......hey it could be worse! still looking for the light.....

my home studio!! malmo,sweden

2009-09-22T20:29:00.000+02:00

bikram yoga malmo...it was taken when we had our seasonal meeting. that is the whole crew!!! miss ally & her belly,kajsa & leia,joshie the only testosterone, mine, miah, mania......where's angela?? mmm she wasn't there then!

mmmmm all psych to go....working very hard...trying to feed the dialogue in brain!! patient, patient...i know i will get it...well sooner or later!

2009-09-21T18:28:00.000+02:00

akakakaka..i love this pix..rik is in the "don't take my pix or i'll bite you" mood....he is funny!

EID MUBARAK

2009-09-20T09:43:00.000+02:00

EID MUBARAK

to all my friends

family

everyone

hope this day & month brings you tranquility & peace

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

AIDIL FITRI

2009

manjushri...who that?

2009-09-17T08:14:00.000+02:00

MANJUSHRI

AH RA PA NA TSA DHI

The Sanskrit term Mañjuśrī can be translated as "Gentle Glory"

that's exactly what i need.....gentle glory!! TT's dialogue is challenging for me....it's just words but i mean i can converse in 6 different dialects & languanges but this is hard. i can only do my best & my best is all i have....but soon + i phone...even better...hehehehe

and yes i am a GADGET YOGINI....i shcloves it! counting the days.....16 days to go....

how to chant

AH RA PA NA TSA DHI

chant it one mala 108 times daily. it's good for kids too ....it's good for concentration!

anders jonsson....the funny man!!

2009-09-15T16:53:00.000+02:00

the in pic is the funniest man alive in sweden...not that he's old!! anders jonsson....he is about 2 meters tall, bright red haired...freckled...and the most gentle person i've met.
fredrik's first movie MORGAN PALSSON was based on characters written/acted by anders & his partner!!!
otherwise he known as TIFFANY PERSSON fr. STAFFANSTORP....a suburb where nothing happens...just peasant & drug heads & danes!!!
anders and his partner JOHAN WESTER works & produce a comedy series called hipp hipp...they are hillariously funny...u could literally laugh for days...
so rhetorically speaking.....we met anders on the way to tilda & met SUNKEN(anders jonsson) one of hipp hipp's character strolling in town with camera equipment....fresh from the scene for the new season....just to give u another good reason to question why we should pay tv & radio license in sweden...is he not paid enough or was i conned....in england this "walking around in full character fresh fr shooting with camera equipment" is illegal.
so pardon me if the facts of your working history is not accurate but that's how much i know personally.

Strike a pose!

2009-09-09T12:08:00.002+02:00

Meet the man of life...Sunken! isn't he a catch? I'll write abt him later...got to do a bit of research! Me fasting today

mmmmmm i counted the dosh.......not very promising!

2009-09-08T19:17:00.001+02:00

D O S H

i want more of it....can i plant it??? why not....aaahh sigh! so the news is that there is no fridge in hilton vegas...i mean in the room as in no minibar....what the fuck....usd 3,900 is not that much but sure they fix a freaking fridge?? no???

sigh....http://www.lvhilton.com...i mean WHYYYYYY??? no budget is it!

i have a reader...o wow

2009-09-07T20:32:00.002+02:00

eh chup!!! i actually have a reader...o wow

christopher
i don't know who u are...but dude u rock ur socks!!!

thanks for making my day!!!